Broken Angel?

We live in a world full of so much we cannot touch or measure.
Our culture demands both for truth. I don't believe that. Probably many of you don't either. To do so is limited at best and at worst, destructive. Angels are messengers. I am no angel, but I am paying attention.

Friday, July 4, 2014

Being a Patriot



   As a college sophomore, I was a wise fool.  Such is the fate of the young to be filled with a confidence to forge ahead and assume they have enough wisdom and energy to deal with the problems of the world without making the same mistakes that have been made before.  Energy there may be.  Seething torrents of it.   But wisdom?  Well, they do have the wisdom of the young.  Wisdom to claim happy endings.  Wisdom to believe we could be doing better.  Wisdom to face walls as obstacles rather than necessary additions to the land scape. So you see the paradox.  There is great wisdom and power in these possibilities.  And there is glory.  Ah glory. 

   So, armed and shackled with this paradox, I went forth from the ivory tower to face the bastion of entrenched darkness, home.  So the foolishness shows its gory face.  I wasn’t horrific, but close to it.  My parents looked forward to having me come and breathed in relief to have me go.  My local congregation had arranged a ‘Folk Service’ led by the ‘Young People’ complete with a ‘Dialogue Sermon.’  Talk about foolish.  It was 1967/68.  They were desperately trying to be relevant.  They were trying to see the upheavals around them with some perspective other than fear.  The stench of their burning center city was still fresh in memory.  The war in South East Asia was becoming a wound.  The young were not staying on the tracks so lovingly laid for them.  And the cacophony of Rock and Roll was swamping The Rat Pack, Rosemary, Bing, and Big Band Music in pounding rhythms and feedback.  Slick and pretty had become shaggy and bra-less.  Scotch and soda had been traded for pot and LSD.  And worst of all, the kids were protesting everything from cutting down trees to supporting the boys-over-there.  They had stopped being American.  Perhaps these church leaders who planned the dialogue service were a bit sophomoric themselves.  Or they were trying to build bridges.  It was a deep chasm. 

   The place was packed.  We played our songs, even had a sing along without incident.  But the dialogue sermon was loaded with tension.  The kids actually got honest about the war and a pervasive judgment on their life styles.  Finally one of the ‘older guys’ stood up and almost cried, “Why don’t you love your country anymore?”

   The room went silent.  The question was loaded.  He wasn’t only raising a question about our patriotism but about our identity, about our value systems, and most about our relationships with these people who were struggling to have a clue about who we had become.

   Everybody looked at me.  I had the longest hair, I played the guitar, I was a minister’s kid, and I had said I wanted to be a minister.  So obviously I was the one to field this land mine.  Hey, I was a sophomore.  The motto of my college is “Why Not?”  So I forged ahead toward… 

   “I do love my country.  I consider myself a patriot.”  I let that one sink in for effect.  “We are the best educated generation in the history of this nation, because of the schools you have built.  We’ve studied more history and American history than any generation before us.  Thomas Jefferson is one of my heroes.  So is Ben Franklin and George Washington.  These guys were revolutionaries.  Their vision of what this nation could be is revolutionary.  It’s nuts.  It makes room for everybody.  The Bill of Rights is off the wall.  It offers an equal footing to anybody.  They were crazy enough to believe it was possible, not probable, but possible.  It still is nuts.  Jefferson thought we were going to need a good revolution every 20 years or so, just to keep the dream from getting bogged down in the power plays that have defined history since it began.  So, Jefferson was right.  We’re having a revolution.  No guns.  Just Jimi Hendrix.  We’re fighting for your country too, for its soul.  You taught us to do that.  We don’t expect you to approve.  Why should you?  Just listen, listen with your hearts and believe that we’re not totally nuts.  And love us.  We need that.  We’ll grow up.  Then you can retire and let us fight with our kids.”

   Pretty good speech, huh?  Somebody recorded it with one of the old reel to reel machines.  My mother cried.  My father was preaching at another church and asked for prayers for the congregation where the dialogue service was happening.  God listened.  The last line got a laugh.  To this day I have no explanation for the content, except for the Holy Spirit.  It’s what I’ve come to believe, but then?  Gimme a break.  I was a sophomore.  But I guess I was a patriot, even then.  Peace bro’.

   Happy Fourth of July.      

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